FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE

I FEEL LIKE I`M STONED, I WANNA BE ALLONE, JUST FOR A WHILE UNKNOWN WEEKS ON THE READ A LONG WAY FROM HOME, JUST SHUT OFF THE PHONE

AND YOU SAY I`LL HEAL YOU I`LL ALWAYS BE YOURS

AND YOU SAY I`LL KILL YOU IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG, YEAH, YEAH

 

STILL FEELS LIKE THE FIRST TIME

TO STAND HERE BY YOUR SIDE

TOGETHER REGARDLESS

WE`LL WALK THROUGH THE DARKNESS

STILL FEELS LLIKE THE FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE

 

REMEMBER THE TIMES, TOGETHER WE SWORE TO NEVER GIVE UP THIS LIFE

STILL HANGING ON, STILL GOING STRONG, HERE I BELONG

AND MAYBE I`M CRAZY BUT I JUST CAN`T SLOW DOWN

YEAH MAYBE I`M CRAZY BUT AT LEAST I`M STILL AROUND, YEAH, YEAH

IN THE SHADOWS

NO SLEEP, NO SLEEP UNTIL I`M DONE WITH FINDING THE ANSWER

WON`T STOP, WON`T STOP BEFORE I FIND THE CURE FOR THIS CANCER

AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE GOING DOWN AND SO DISCONNECTED

BUT SOMEHOW I KNOW THAT I AM HAUNTED TO BE WANTED

 

I`VE BEEN WATCHING, I`VE BEEN WAITING IN THE SHADOWS FOR MY TIME

I`VE BEEN SEARCHING, I`VE BEEN LIVING FOR TOMORROWS ALL MY LIFE

 

THEY SAY THAT I MUST LEARN TO KILL BEFORE I CAN FEEL SAFE

BUT I, I`D RATHER KILL MYSELF THAN TURN INTO THEIR SLAVE

AND SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT I SHOULD GO AND PLAY WITH THE THUNDER

CAUSE SOMEHOW I JUST DON`T WANNA STAY AND WAIT FOR A WONDER

 

LATELY I`VE BEEN WALKING, WALKING IN CIRCLES, WATCHING, WAITING FOR SOMETHING

FEEL ME, TOUCH ME, HEAL ME, COME TAKE ME HIGHER

STILL STANDING

I WISH YOU WERE HERE TONIGHT WITH ME TO SEE THE NORTHERN LIGHTS

I WISH YOU WERE HERE TONIGHT WITH ME

I WISH I COULD HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE TONIGHT WHEN THE SKY IS BURNING

I WISH I COULD HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE

 

CAUSE I`VE BEEN DOWN AND I`VE BEEN CRAWLING

WON`T BACK DOWN NO MORE

 

CAN`T YOU STOP THE LIES FALLING FROM THE SKIES

DOWN ON ME, I`M STILL STANDING

CAN`T YOU ROLL THE DICE, I MIGHT BE SURPRISED

CONSCIENCE CLEAR I`M STILL STANDING HERE

 

BURNS LIKE A THOUSAND STARS, THOUGH YOU`RE LIGHT YEARS AWAY

BURNS LIKE A THOUSAND STARS OT MORE

 

YOU`RE UP THERE, YOU`RE ALWAYS WITH ME

SMILING DOWN IN ME

 

IT`S SOMETHING SACRED, SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL

SOMETHING QUIET TO EASE MY MIND

WHEN THE PRESSURE`S TAKING ME OVER AND OVER

 

CAUSE I`VE BEEN DOWN AND I`VE BEEN CRAWLING

PUSHED AROUND, ALWAYS FALLING

YOU`RE UP THERE, YOU`RE ALWAYS WITH ME

SMILING DOWN ON ME

IN MY LIFE

FEEL THE HEAT BELOW MY FEET

I HAVE TO GO NO TIME TO SLEEP

CAN`T BELIEVE THE THINGS YOU SAY

TURN MY HEAD AND WALK AWAY

YOU MAKE ME SICK YOU MAKE ME NERVOUS

 

TIMES ARE GONE WHEN YOU WOULD SAY

THIS IS THE ONE AND SEIZE THE DAY

TIMES ARE GONE FOR HONESTY

"MY VICTORY IS YOUR BEFEAT"

OH CAN`T YOU SEE YOU`VE BEEN MISTAKEN

 

IN MY LIFE I DECIDE AND IT TURNS ME ON

HOW I AM, HOW I LIVE, WHO I LOVE

IN MY WAY I FEEL STRONG

AND IT TURNS ME ON

IN MY LIFE, I DECIDE, I DECIDE

 

ALL YOU DO, YOU CAN`T DENY IT, IT`S WASTE OF TIME, WASTE OF LIFE

CAN I SUGGEST THAT YOU INVEST IN SOMETHING MORE THAN HOPELESSNESS

BEFORE YOU KNOW, THE RIDE IS OVER

 

IT`S UP TO YOU IF YOU GIVE IT UP, GIVE IT UP

IT`S UP TO YOU IF YOU WON`T STOP

 

THE RECORD SHOWS THAT YOU`RE DEAD BUT YOU`RE STILL LIVING

EVERY TIME YOU HAVE DIED YOU HACE BEEN GIVEN

ANOTHER CHANCE TO FIX YOUR BAD ATTITUDE

AND MAKE A MOVE, IT`S UP TO YOU

TIME TO BURN

FEAR OF THE DARK TEARS ME APART

WON`T LEAVE ME ALONE AND TIME KEEPS RUNNING OUT

 

JUST ONE MORE LIFE, I`M SO SICK AND TIRED

OF SINGING THE BLUES, I SHOULD TURN MY LIFE AROUND

 

TELL ME WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY

ALL MY LIFE I`VE BEEN STANDING ON THE BORDERLINE

TOO MANY BRIDGES BURNED

TOO MANY LIES I`VE HEARD

I HAD A LIFE BUT I CAN`T GO BACK

I CAN`T DO THAT, IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

AND I KNOW I DON`T

HAVE ANY TIME TO BURN

 

THEY FOLLOW ME HOME, DISTURBUNG MY SLEEP

BUT I`LL FIND A PLACE, PLACE WHERE THEY CANNOT FIND ME

MAYBE I`M LOST, AND MAYBE I`M SCARED

BUT TOO MANY TIMES I`VE CLOSED THE DOORS BEHIND ME

 

LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND

CROSS THE BORDERLINE

FACE THE TRUTH, DON`T HAVE ANY TIME TO...

DON`T HAVE ANY TIME TO BURN

GUILTY

I FEEL GUILTY

MY WORDS ARE EMPTY

NO SIGNS TO GIVE YOU

I DON`T HAVE THE TIME FOR YOU

 

YOU SAY I`M HEARTLESS

AND YOU SAY I DON`T CARE

I USED TO BE THERE FOR YOU

AND YOU`VE  SAID I SEEM SO DEAD, THAT T HAVE CHANGED

BUT SO HAVE YOU

 

GUILTY, GUILTY I FEEL SO

EMPTY, EMPTY YOU KNOW HOW TO MAKE ME FEEL

 

I PUT A SHIELD UPON YOU

I DIDN`T MEAN TO HURT YOU

I WOULD HAVE ONLY POISONED YOUR MIND

NEVER MEANT TO MAKE YOU CRY

 

YOU`VE BEEN SO THOUGHTELSS

I CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU

YOU USED TO BE THERE FOR ME

SO DON`T YOU LEAVE SAY GOOD-BYE

CAUSE YOU HAVE CHANGED BUT SO HAVE I

 

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT THE TIME AND THE DISTANCE

BETWEEN US MADE YOU SO MUCHCOLDER.

I`LL CARRY THE WORLD ON MY SHOULDERS

NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS

NO MORE BLAME I AM DESTINED TO KEEP YOU SANE

GOTTA RESCUE THE FLAME

GOTTA RESCUE THE FLAME IN YOUR HEART

 

NO MORE BLOOD, I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU MY LOVE

I WILL STAND BY YOUR SIDE

THE WORLD HAS FORSAKEN MY GIRL

 

I SHOULD HAVE SEEN IT WOULD BE THIS WAY

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN FROM THE START WHAT SHE`S UP TO

WHEN YOU`VE LOVED AND YOU`VE LOST SOMEONE

YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO LOSE

 

SHE`S FADING AWAY

AWAY FROM THIS WORLD

DRIFING LIKE A FEATHER

SHE`S NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS

SHE LIVES IN THE CLOUDS

SHE TALKS TO THE BIRDS

HOPLESS LITTLE ONE

SHE`S NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS I KNOW

 

NO MORE SHAME, SHE HAS FELT TO MUCH PAIN, IN HER LIFE

IN HER MIND SHE`S REPEATING THE WORDS

ALL THE LOVE YOU PUT OUT WILL RETURN TO YOU

THE ONE I LOVE

HAVEN`T SLEPT IN A WEEK

MY BED HAS BEVOME MY COFFIN

CANNOT BREATHE, CANNOT SPEAK

MY HEAD`S LIKE A BOMB, STILL WAITING

TAKE MY HEART AND TAKE MY SOUL

I DON`T NEED THEM ANYMORE

 

THE ONE I LOVE

IS STRIKING ME DOWN AN MY KNEES

DROWNING ME IN MY DREAMS

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

DRAGGING ME UNDER

 

HYPNOTIZED BY THE NIGHT

SILENTLY RESING BESIDE ME

EMPTNESS, NOTHINGNESS

IS BURNING A HOLE INSIDE ME

TAKE MY FAITH AND TAKE MY PRIDE

I DON`T NEED THEM ANYMORE

 

THIS BED HAS BECOME MY CHAPEL OF STONE

A GARDEN OF DARKNESS TO WHERE I`M THROWN

SO TAKE MY LIFE, I DON`T NEED IT ANYMORE

BACK IN THE PICTURE

THERE WERE TIMES IN MY LIFE I WAS DOWN IN MY KNEES, NOW IT`S OVER

DEEP INSIDE MY HEART I KNOW

SIMPLY PUT I`VE BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK EVER SINCE I REMEMBER

DEEP INSIDE IT HURT TO LET GO

 

I`M BACK IN THE PICTURE, BACK IN THE PICTURE

I WONDER WHAT TOOK SO LONG, SO LONG

 

DEDICATE EVERYTHING I CREATE

TO MY FRIENDS I WOULD DIE FOR

BUT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE ONE

MEMORIES THAT YOU CAN`T OVERRUN, MEMORIES I COULD CRY FOR

I THOUGHT I`D ALWAYS BE ON THE RUN

FUNERAL SONG

I DUMPED YOU AGAIN

I DON`T UNDERSTAND

IT`S HAPPENED BEFORE

CAN`T TAKE IT NO MORE

 

THERE FOOLISH FAMES

ALWAYS END UP IN CONFUSSION

I`LL TAKE YOU BACK

JUST TO LEAVE YOU ONCE AGAIN

 

I DIED IN MY DREAMS

WHAT`S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

GOT LOST IN THE FIRE

I DIED IN MY DREAMS

REACHING OUT FOR YOUR HAND

MY FATAL DESIRE

 

I`VE FAILED YOU AGAIN

CAUSE I LET YOU STAY

I USED TO PRETEND

THAT I FELT OK

 

JUST ONE BIG LIE

SUCH A PERFECT ILLUSION

I MADE YOU MINE

JUST TO HURT YOU ONCE AGAIN

" A DEAD LETTER IS A LETTER THAT HAS NEVER BEEN DELIVERED BECAUSE THE PERSON TO WHOM IT WAS WRITTEN CANNOT BE FOUND, AND IT ALSO CANNOT BE RETURNED TO THE PERSON WHO WROTE IT"